Decisions – Paths – Decisions

I was in my hometown GZ for four full days – no obsessive eating, partying nor shopping but spending time in the hospital with my dad. I was trying very hard to control my emotion. Before I took off from Singapore, my tears streamed down in an uncontrollable manner every time I talked or thought of my dad. I even had this anxiety caused migraine and abnormal heart beat. I was crying in my room, in my boss’ room and even in front of the computer at work. I know it is time for me to leave this country. I love everything here in Singapore, just that I need supports. Regardless I am in GZ or Melbourne or even in Sydney, I am surrounding by friends and families, while I am all alone in this small country.

I have typed up my resignation letter as well as a farewell letter to my dear team mates. I am left to pick a day to submit the letter and a place to go next year. I still don't know if I’d go back home to live under my parents’ comfort nest and enjoy being jobless or go back to Melbourne/Sydney to continue what I have left down there. I am still not sure.