Very upset, sick and lonely
For a very long time, I haven’t been this sick – throat ache, aching muscles, dizziness, mild fever and fatigue. Indeed, I have not been any better since I came back to Melbourne. Yes, I have got a job, so what? I may be better off staying home with my parents. At least I would be taken care of when I am not well. I could also spend some time with my ailing father. I just can’t wait for the day I can leave this city, hopefully forever.
The gloomy side of me slowly kills off my laughter and wits. My skin and smiles are purely a shell. For as long as I can remember, I was thrown in the dark, struggling to survive, hinge to the edge of life at some stage. I was made to stand on my own feet, venture out to seek for a new life, and try to take care of others. No one really understands the emotional stress I have been withstanding. To add salt to the wound, I was blamed by a lot of things. I would rather be leaving alone, clasping to a frail lifeline on my own than being surrounding by people who expect anonymous things from me.
The gloomy side of me slowly kills off my laughter and wits. My skin and smiles are purely a shell. For as long as I can remember, I was thrown in the dark, struggling to survive, hinge to the edge of life at some stage. I was made to stand on my own feet, venture out to seek for a new life, and try to take care of others. No one really understands the emotional stress I have been withstanding. To add salt to the wound, I was blamed by a lot of things. I would rather be leaving alone, clasping to a frail lifeline on my own than being surrounding by people who expect anonymous things from me.
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