Thoughts

I redid the Flemington Racecourse induction – the feeling was totally different six years ago. I was 19, walking up the windy road to the grandstand in the drizzle, studying in Media school, dreaming to become an event organizer/manager and anxious about the Cup carnival. Six years later, I still need to work in the Racecourse. The differences were I was much more mature, have managed regional events, have stood behind the camera and listened to my anticipated interviews by the journalists. If I want, I could even be one of the corporate guesses sipping Champaign in Grandstand.

What is holding me back?

A lot of things. If life is as simple as Lina’s fairytale world, I would not be as tough as what I am now.

I do not feel a pinch from the financial market crack down, because I don't have many things. True. Over these years, what I have accumulated? Started from grand zero and working really hard to put things together, once, twice, again and again. However, circumstances change, things are being taken away, and I have to start all over again. Maybe that is why I don't really want to own anything. I just find the less I have, the less I will care about loosing. I hate whoever asks me to commit to something that will tight me up for years – hold on to what I am having now, only care tomorrow to a certain extend (but don't live like there is no tomorrow, I need something to look forward to)!