Drifting

I start throwing things away again – heart still not settles and am hoping to venture out once more. No one to blame and nothing to complain, it is all by faith. I can’t see the end of the tunnel. I have given up building my dream castle: one wall laid and faith pushes down the bricks. Seriously, why bother? Why dream? I made lots of dreams and stopped one day when they were all struck down beyond my control. I just look so helpless in front of faith.

When my time is served and my duty for my beloved father is accomplished, I can’t wait a second longer to leave the city I never like. I want to make my own choice while I still be able to steer my will.