Crap Union

I completely understand why there are corruptions in MUSU after today’s winter school. I was surprised to find that there were only three students turned up for my tute, compared to Johnny’s 20+ tute yesterday. The time arrangement was a total chaos, Johnny had the tute that I supposed to have, and the head tutors were just like those helpless dudes. Anyway, it is a good practise for me to build up self-confidence when I speak in front of people. Actually, when I was in secondary school, I spoke in front of 56 classmates all the time. Once you get used to it, then you will move up to another leadership level.

Next semester will be very busy for me. I will be doing a lot of extra curriculum activities: SALP (one hour per week + ALG); Dance (one hour per week); CTG (late Sept early Oct); MUOSS (liaison); Career centre; university service. I am not sure if I can handle this, but I will try. I will drop my job if I really run out of time. I have decided to join MUOSS, because I really want to know how I can find sponsorship for events. It is very important to me. When I think of last year’s interview for liaison co-opt, I was such a silly girl turn up for knowing nothing about what I am applying for. I have changed a lot in a year, and I believe if I go for the interview I will definitely get in. It is the matter of the fact that I want to apply or not. I will not work or work less in next semester probably. Life is much important than money for me.

I have no comment to Melbourne weather. It is just weird. It can be sunshine in the morning and thunderstorm in the afternoon. However, the weather is gorgeous since Sunday and I feel like a sin to stay indoors yesterday. The wind is strong though, it blows up to 80km/hr on Monday. It is even faster than a car!! No wonder I could not walk when I was walking against the wind.

Last night I talked to a customer, he asked me what I want to do when I graduate (I am always asked this kind of question). I said: “Probably in advertising or PR.” Then he said: “Hmm…it is very competitive and hard. But I tell you, everything is hard these days.” I know. So I know my life perspective is to enjoy doing things I am doing and try my best to achieve my goal. What is my goal? Pretty simple: I want to see myself improving every year and to be maturer than people in my age group.

Today's Quote:

我看着自觉的薪金月结单,不得不承认自己追求物质的欲望远远大于我能力所及,在还没找到愿意供养我的那个人之前,为了满足自我欲求,我便成为日本学者山田昌弘所谓的”单身寄生虫”……他们拥有职业和收入,但在生活基本需求上仍深深依赖父母,如房租,房车贷款,电器,日产用品等都依靠父母供给,而薪金所得便省下来给自己消费名牌,出国旅行.这些所谓”单身寄生虫”都清楚知道不应利用父母之爱,也不可能一辈子都依赖父母,目前的寄生生活只是一种投机之计 --- 如何趁青春貌美时就能开着漂亮的房车四处游走?除了大方的父母,还真找不到更好的答案了.(张玮栩,《自己的房间》）。

Being a tutor

Life always changes dramatically, you can not expect things will be stable forever. I have experienced the fickleness since I start to manage my life last year. Finding accommodation, managing work and study, school activities and commitment, planning for travel, worrying about future, come across relationship, etc. Everything I mention above is fluid, and they would suddenly slope down at their high points.

This week I will be a tutor for those Year 12 kids. I hope I will be a good tutor and receive no complain afterwards. I have worked out how I am gonna to teach in my tute class and structured my plans with my tute coordinator. But I wouldn’t know how I will behave when I stand in front of 20+ students and speak awkward English! Anyway, it is a challenge for me.

Today's quote:

我们如果信仰商业社会浮夸的展示, 要晋升上流社会的途径是成为一名拥有丰富入息的专业人士, 医生, 律师, 会计师等, 或是懂得投资理财的企业家.于是我们努力念书, 以此改变自己的命运. 接着学习上层阶级的语言, 姿势, 礼仪, 态度, 意见, 风格等等.然后希望让自己的孩子在未来是自由的.(张玮栩,《自己的房间》）。

Chilly outdoor day

Yesterday was a bit chilly cold for outdoor activities. I am one of the stupid bums to go out for CVA to remove weeds in the awful weather. The people there told us that “one-year’s seeding, ten year’s weeding.” We had to bend down to remove weeds bit by bit, and the volunteers didn’t seem to enjoy it too much. They are the jobless people receiving dole from the government and have to do it voluntarily. The team leader, Bridget, she is doing her honour in environmental science and doesn’t see her future be very bright. In this commercial age, people pay too little attention to the environment they are living in, or even the people they are living with. You can only earn good money in commercial industry, and sustain living is put at the end of the agenda.

Today's quote:

原来商业社会是这么教育我的， 透过上层人士的展示， 向我们炫示美好生活的幻象。虚荣心煽动我一定不可以跟金钱过不去，免得有一天走进那店里（Tiffany）却欠缺一股从容的气质。（张玮栩，《自己的房间》）。

Flinder's Lane Exposure

今天心情很好，because I have don’t a lot of things and eventurally open my heart to embrace the world. And I decide not to go clubbing tonight, in case I get drunk and can not wake up to plant tree in the coastal tomorrow :>

This morning, I went to do research for career center again. I have talked to the event organizer and the career consultant about what I can do with my degree in the future. Arts is different from commerce, engineer, medicine or whatever similar color code (your graduate gown) degrees, they don’t teach you a specific skill. Instead, it teaches you the way of thinking and doing things. Is it a good way or bad? I cant say and I wouldn’t know until I come out to work for several years. I trust luck, opportunity, and commitment. Who doesn’t want to be rewarded without doing anything? There is no such thing in the world that a human was born to do in her/his favor, unless you are Paris or Nikkie, two stupid party chicks. The only way out is to embrace life, to love, or at least not hate, the things you are doing. Enjoy your everyday, not to worry too much and an uncontrollable future. Life is short, no one wants to regret when they are sitting on a wheelchair talking those old things. Youth should chock up with color, not grey. I was in dark grey for many months, or maybe years. I need to change! Actually, I have changed a lot since April. Thanks God, give me a holy month although I did not have Fast Day or something like that. For me, life is not stable. When I was young, I contempt those people who admire or have stable life. But when I grow older, I realize stable is not a bad thing, unless you are happy with what you are doing and you don’t waste a day in your life.

Yesterday I talked to my dad on MSN. He told me he was going to Athens for Olympic this year. I didn’t feel jealous, instead, I feel happy. Why? Because he is the one I love, if he is happy then I will be happy too. Happiness can be as simple as this. I understand more about love now. I am lucky that I have friends will not leave me at any time. I will never walk in the middle of the road in mid-night ever again.

In the afternoon, I went down town to ask about the MYOB course. Then I discovered a new city library on Flinders Lane. It is soooooo cool. It has got recent DVD, CD and Chinese fictions. Hmm…I should visit there more often. After that, I strolled down the whole Flinders Lane. It is my favorite “little” street I like in Melbourne (my favorite road is Royal Pde). Several cute, antique shops had been stepped in by a girl (me!!) without fashion. They are: Genki, Toxic, a Japanese bookshop on Cathedral arcade, Scarf festival and a Swiss Waffle café.

So far, I have knitted three scarfs, which, if there are still with me, can be sold in the Scarf festival for a few hundred AU dollars. One is green compounded with white, now is with Jacky. One is pure white, it took me a year to knit it and is with 惠敏. The recent one is the most complicated, it is red and grey; it took me only two months, and maybe somewhere in the world.

On my way back to Uni, I bought a bubble tea called Longan (龙眼), it is on the “dare to try” list. Even the bubble girl doesn’t know what the hell is that, so I tried it. Super sweet! It is not bad, but I will not have this favor again. Ai…I miss the smoothie in Guangzhou.

Being a student is the best job in the world, except for those assignment time. We have not much to worry about and holiday all the time. I am saving up for the Perth trip in November later this year.

Holiday life

I have been reading lots of my friends', and friends' friends' websites after exams. It is a bit like six degrees of separation, hitting the chance to find someone you don’t know but may be very important in your life. I did find some. They write very good articles and indepth viewpoint of life and the world. Singaporean is cool. I want to know them, I want to talk to them, even though we have never met.

Life in holiday is bored. Working at night, volunteer for researching along with lots of reading in the day time, every day is the same. Childhood counts age; Adulthood counts days. I am very pessimistic to every thing around me, except my true friends.

Winter is out at my window. Darkness after darkness; rain drops after rain drops; wind is soaring every day. Everything is grey in Melbourne now, including my heart. I am better this year than last year this time, while I was indulge myself in darkness and suffering the bitterness of …

Conservation Volunteer

Yesterday I went with Conservation Volunteer Australia (CVA) to a forest called Gembrook park somewhere in Dandenong. I did this as part of my SALP community service and wanted to experience something different. I have never been to a forest before and it was quite an unique experience. What we did was just simply put some wired on wooden bridges, removed weeds in edges of the forests. Some local old people had been doing this for years, and they were quite happy with this kind of simple country life style. I talked to them about life and was astonished to find out that how simple a life can be. Jenny, a woman born in England, immigrated to Melbourne when she was 9, became a cook for 20 years since she finished school. Now she has two daughters and a boyfriend, and works as a part time housekeeping. It is as simple as this. I ask myself: "Do I really like this kind of life?" The answer is "NO". I prefer to work harder and competitive rather than working in a restaurant, and have a stable life. I make up mind that I will go to Singapore to find opportunity. There is something more important than money and big house in life.

I am sick of looking people around me working jobs they don’t like. Last Monday, I met Naomi again. she was still the same - a professional "job quitter". She is a typical 20-something young Aussie, has lots of ambitious but too lazy to achieve. I also met Dave, a guy had made 20+ short films. He is a professional "job sacker". He told me that one day he was sack because he told his boss he was there only for the money. Quite funny huh? But how many people at work are not for the money? How many people are really like what they are doing in life? Life is a commitment, you cannot be happy without doing anything but dreaming. You have to tell yourself "I like my job", or " I am happy because I did not waste my time today", otherwise, you will always live in darkness and don’t know where your are heading to.

I admit I have quite negative personality. I want to change, but, who will guide me through?

Holiday

I am hardly addicted to something for a counted time because I don’t want to be the best. I know this idea is weird, but if you want to reach the top you have to give up a lot of things. I just want to be simple, to see things I haven’t seen and experience different style of lives. That is why I will definitely live in Kings Cross one day. Anyway, recently I watch a Japanese animate series called Witch Hunter Robin every night until 3 o’clock in the morning. This is why I did not update my website since I finished my exam on Thursday. It is ok only, compared to those I watched when I was a teen. I haven’t been so crazy of being addicted to this kind of entertainment for years, the last time was 6 years ago at least. I am too rational to be entertained. Ahh…media student.

These days I keep questioning myself about why I choose to work in media industry. It is an industry depends much on luck and you must not expect too high about the pay. I understand now how come so many people study business, one for the money, second for stable. However, my perspective is, I want to be an outsider of the society game, I want to see those money players perform on the media stage. Being an observer is better than a player.

Holiday has already started, I have got a list of must-read-book. I hope I can finish reading half of them. Yeah, I will continue to make my site more readable.

Sunday Business

I could not finish my economic exam. The first part was OK, but the second part was like… I know how to do the last question when the exam finished. I always like that, difficult to work well under pressure. I still have got one more to go. This one has no pressure, because I have no idea how I am gonna to boast shit in the exam. The lecturer is so crap and stupid. I will definitely get P for this subject.

Today I watched Business Sunday on Channel 9 for two hours. There was one topic about superannuation. The sad thing about human beings is we all have to get old. In the modern society, we can live longer but we cannot AFFORD to!! The experts calculate how much you need to live in a comfortable life when you are old. I watched TODAY on the other day, the presenter said: “You have to save money for yourself. When your children ask you for mortgage, don’t give it to them!” It is quite ironic, but it is truth. The other solution is birth boom, “one for the husband, one for the wife, and one for the country.” Ha~ha~.

Exam tomorrow!

Tomorrow is my first economic exam, I have no mood to study. I can’t say I hate it, I am just not that kind of person. I take this subject because I have to, at least, learn something about business in the world. Sometimes I question about the world: why people make things complicated? Why they created the stock market, etc.etc. BUT this is unavoidable when human society develop to a certain degree. As we were born as it is, we can not change it. What we can do to survive is to adapt it, at the same time, find our own interest in the cruelness and madness.

Stomachache again! I know I must take care about my health, but my stomach is so weak that I can’t eat something unclean. Anyway, bless for my exam!!! (woo~woo~)

Beautiful sunset

I just got an impressive sunset outside the window at the top floor of union house. I am lack of word to describe how astonish I was. It was the most beautiful I have ever seen, compared those time we saw in St. Kilda.

I was surprised that Nic had the same background skin as my site ^0^. So happy to see her comment on my site. I hope my feelings can be shared by more people. Share is fun.

I finally deleted him from my contact list. I don’t want to know anything about him anymore. I made my decision after talking to Krist. I shouldn’t waste my time on someone crap.

Sunny Day & Lazy Day

These two days weather are fabulous. Autumn is the only season I like of Melbourne, but lovely things are always short. Yellow leaves will eventually drop off from the tree and stepped into soil. They are very smart, because they don’t need to suffer the long cold dark Melbourne winter. I hope I can live like them, only live in the most beautiful time.

Yeah, yesterday was the laziest day in my life. I only studied for 2 hours, and then slept from 1:30pm to 5:00pm. I woke up to go to work for 3 hours, refused to work till 12:00am, so came back home just in time to watch the Apprentices. I love this reality TV show. It is very different from those crap Big Brother, the Blog, etc. A wealthy businessman with the most talented business people in New York. "That is life, you have to make difficult choice." "You are fired." So cruel! But if we want to survive, we can't avoid the cruelness, no matter how many "Please don’t!" you say.

I hope I can make my blog cool enough in the holiday. This is my first time to have my own website ah!! So happy, unless I have done something different lah. :>

A sunny quiet day

Today is Monday, a new beginning of nowhere. I am quite a bit of lost these days. I can't see my true self, wondering in a lost world. Is it every 20-year-old like this? Being an adult means have to take a lot of responsibility no matter how much you are reluctant to.

Some people resist growing up and trying to live under their parents’ protection as long as they can. Human has a laziness nature. If you don’t venture out for the first step, you will never know how wonderful the world is out there. I decide to take the risk, unless I find someone worth I give up my dream.